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xxI hope for your sake you don't wake up as broken
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| We family and aint a damn thing changed, unless it's you |
[27 Jun 2004|09:17pm] |
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Well...well...well...boy do i have alot on my mind hehe...i realized i'm DONE with the bullshit it's going to be so different now...sooo FUCKIN different...now what you say will be TRUE...oooh man so fuckin stupid...blah
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| PISSSSSSSSSSSED |
[27 Jun 2004|12:02am] |
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just somethings that remind me of....me not anyone else...how i feel about things...and about me
( Read more... )
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[22 Jun 2004|02:35pm] |
| How to make a xx_soafraid_xx |
Ingredients:
3 parts friendliness
5 parts courage
1 part leadership |
Method:
Layer ingredientes in a shot glass. Add a little cocktail umbrella and a dash of emotion |
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[21 Jun 2004|07:57pm] |
ok so i dont like this stupid little pitty party my dad is trying to put on me. so yesterday was fathers day and i wasn't home so he is trying to make me feel bad, honestly i don't care. i said happy fathers day sorry i wasn't home but not like anything would have happened anyway it would have been exactly they same i just would be on the computer instead of out? oh well w/e he's guilt trip ain't working on me...FUCK now my moms bitching shad ap leave me the fuck alone gah! anyways yesterday i was angry at stuff but its cool i understand...funny though but w/e i have to "clean" ya..no...but i am going to go..byebye
( Bold the things you've done...can you tell i am bored )
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| I Am Fading |
[17 Jun 2004|10:56pm] |
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so know what the most horrible thing is...thinking about the past. i tend to think alot which isn't always the best thing for me to do at times. i've slowly become something i HATE i've started turning into a person i can't live with. it's hard, so hard sometimes. slowly i am letting myself, get the best of...myself. i can't just let things go, i can't just forget it, it is so hard and it is hurting me so bad. i dont know what to do. i can't let it just go, i cant forget i want to so bad, but something inside me won't let me forget and i cant handle it much longer. it's like i am constantly reliving things in my head. when i pass by places or certain things, when something like a name, or a certain word is said it drives me CRAZY i want to let it out, but i know what bring it all up would do and it is something i don't want to deal with so i just bottle it up until one day...i just can't but i dont know what else to do anymore. i really cant stop it anymore i really wish i could just forget...
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[22 May 2004|10:44am] |
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wow i never write in here anymore...psh not like anyone reads it anyways muahaha...but i thought i would write lets see whats gwanin...well i am working this whole fuckin weekend wat a break for me >:\ oh well its money?? i guess?? whatever i gotta go in about an hour oooh boy im excited with my luck i am going to have to help bag! i hate bagging! i hope i dont get fired i fucked up pretty bad on thursday im scared to go in seems like every weekend i get in trouble for doing something i shouldnt have done..or NOT doing something i should have done lol oh well stupidness well dont have anything interesting to say...so ill leave...
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| Fucked Up |
[30 Apr 2004|03:53pm] |
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Cassidy - Make You Scream |
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you're pretty funny eh! i swear you don't know how FUCKED UP you are! seriously this is fucked i am pissed out of my mind people are so dumb i swear you all need to get fixed!!just get hit by a fuckin car and save us all the trouble of putting up with you...go find something to keep u occupied i heard prostitution is a good job these days >:\ FUCK MAN im so pissed but hey its allll good ill handle it not like its that much of a bother not anymore...
Betrayer!
You are a betrayer. What Type Of Bitch Are You?
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| FUCK U |
[20 Apr 2004|08:46pm] |
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WHY DO I EVEN FUCKIN TRY! i hate my parents, i hate people, hate myself FUCK THIS BULLSHIT! i can't stand it! ya sure i just had one of the worst days of my fuckin like GO MAKE IT FUCKIN WORSE! i swear to fuckin god i need to get out of this damn house or im going to go off the FUCKIN wall and freak out! this is bullshit!!! HOPE SHE GETS HIT BY A BIG MACK TRUCK lol (only someone will understand if he reading hehe) ahhh little humour is good!
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| Should've Known Better |
[16 Apr 2004|08:47pm] |
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Monica - U Should've Known Betta
I didn’t ask to go with you to Mexico
I really didn’t need the shopping spree
And La or Melrose, boy if you didn’t know it
Now you know, I didn’t need the furs or the jewelries
Because martial things don’t mean much to me
And ever since you been gone
I have been holding us down on my own
I never ever cheated
I never ever lied
So u can stop asking me asking me why
Why I never left you, and why I kept it real
And why im still with you
You should’ve known better than to think I would leave
You should’ve known better than to doubt me
It don’t matter if you are up
matter if you are down
Either way im gonna be around
You should’ve known that I would stay by your side
You should’ve known your girl was gonna ride or die
And it just don’t matter if ya rich or poor
Out or in doing 5 to10
You should’ve known better
What makes you think that I would forget about you
Think about it who comes to see ya
Every Saturday and Monday I was on that receiver
It’s me your girl your life your world
My family your friends they just don’t understand
They say I should just leave you lone
But I say that they should just leave us lone
Don’t u get it
I never ever cheated
I never ever lied
So u can stop asking me asking me why
Why I never left you, and why I kept it real
And why im still with you
You should’ve known better than to think I would leave
You should’ve known better than to doubt me
It don’t matter if you are up
matter if you are down
Either way im gonna be around
You should’ve known that I would stay by your side
You should’ve known your girl was gonna ride or die
And it just don’t matter if ya rich or poor
Out or in doing 5 to10
You should’ve known better
You should’ve known better than to think I would leave
You should’ve known better than to doubt me
It don’t matter if you are up
matter if you are down
Either way im gonna be around
You should’ve known that I would stay by your side
You should’ve known your girl was gonna ride or die
And it just don’t matter if ya rich or poor
Out or in doing 5 to10
You should’ve known better
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| I mean what i said, and say what i mean |
[04 Apr 2004|08:57pm] |
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So alot of....SHIAT has been going down this week...veen CrAzY still....but i lived...passed through it and learned alot...bout myself and about alot of the ppl around me...lifes way to short for all this drama...especially now...i aint even gonna sweat stupid shit...thats all it is...stupid....so im done....honestly...i dun wanna deal with no more dumb shit...dont even bring it my way....got something to say dont waste ur time if its bullshit I DONT WANNA HEAR IT....w/e im done
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| CCCCCCRRRRRRRRAAAAAAZZZZZZZZZYYYYYYYYYY |
[28 Mar 2004|08:48pm] |
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY!! love it when people lie,
i love it when its about stuff you shouldn't FUCKIN LIE ABOUT! DON'T
FUCKIN MESS WITH ME NOW, OH HELL I BROKE THEM! IT'S NOT MY FAULT! I
DIDN'T KNOW IT WOULD BREAK! OH HELL MY ARM IT GOT MY ARM DAMNIT!!
THAT WASN'T SUPPOSE TO HAPPEN LMAO ( So Unhappy )
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| Knwoing ENothing, But Knowing It All |
[27 Mar 2004|02:04am] |
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It sucks knowing everything, but nothing at the same time. wish i could do something but i can't im like boxed in i know how to open it, but its stuck...wierd but its my feeling...its my birthday....most people forgot....yes that made me mad but w/e
( Song )
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| BUURN BABY, BURN |
[23 Mar 2004|10:52pm] |
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BUUUUUUUUUUUURN BUUUUUUUUUUUURN BUUUUUUUUUURN that hurts, that hurts really really bad.....That hurt me right here <3.....i don't really care to me that was harsh, *sniff* reaaaaaaally harsh
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| Dem Not Ready |
[21 Mar 2004|11:11pm] |
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so, im here, been thinkin about lots i realized thinking is bad for ur health lmao well bad for mine haha it drives me crazy! i got forced to goto work today, woke up at like 1230 with my mom all hey krystal u gotta goto work today, im like WTF because yesterday the girl said i work tuesday god so i was FREAKING today, but hey....hehe my boss was asking me if i wanted to do a shift for easter at 12am till...like 8am or something im like wtf she's liek well itll be fun im like riiight tahts fuckin EARLY lmao or late...wait...hm...w/e...lol but ill proli get paid good...well gotta think about it anyways im tired and im waiting hm....oooh well ima go, back to some thinking....yay...NO! bad thinking lmao naw naw just PLAYING so, ima go cuz yah, im just gonna go lol latez
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| I Don't Play Games |
[20 Mar 2004|06:43pm] |
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Cam'ron - Me And My Boo |
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well i haven't written in here for a while, well about ANYTHING actually not just stupid quotes or half asses "oh fuck" so thought i would write something. Didn't go to work today, i just didn't feel like it so called in sick, sucked though because my mom wouldnt let me do anything shes like "if your too sick for work, your too sick to go anywhere else" what a butthead. so i went to my brothers championship hockey game. wow i got so into it, started freaking lmao it was great, very, very great hahaha it was bad because my brother was...IS...the best player on his team so since we we're against his friends team everytime id walk by the coaches (my parents friends) would be like "take her tell david we have his sister!!" and im like "well that isn't gonna make him stop playing he doesn't care about me" there like damn hehe but yah fun, although i thought i lost my purse and started freaking out it's all good i found it...then went out with my mom, bought a new phone for my room since i hate always stealing the one from upstairs and having my mom bitch for it back, and i bought a printer for the comp...good stuff..OH BURN I DONT LIKE SEEING THAT *angry face* MOTHER....mmmm....FUCKER! well im going now...have FUN!
"Well I remember that girl tried to slit your neck" "And you remember that stank bitch hittin' the deck"
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